The chaos in her head was organised it seemed. It was armed and ready for attack. She was surprised that anything in her life could be so organised; so ...so planned.

The price was too much to pay, or was it? Can you really forgo something you love for someone you love? Time will tell, wont it? She was getting tired of the questions. All it bore were more questions.

All her life she had thought she was a good person. She thought she cared about others in her life more than she cared about her needs. She just never thought she would be in a position to test that theory. Expectations have always been a burden. But, aren’t you supposed to be able to move mountains for people you love? She didn’t know. She just did not know.

Going through the motions of it all, she was tired. She was tired of questioning herself. She was going to let the chips fall into place. Meanwhile, the dark corner of her head, where everything was mundane and nothing spoke or stirred, beckoned her more and more.

She put her head to her knees, closed her eyes and hummed an old tune. Her dark place awaited.